Am I My Brother's Keeper?

Peep this. I was laid up in my bed knocked the fuck out and watching the back of my eye lids when to my chagrin, I was rudely awaken by of all people, my raggedy ass, wanna be thug ass, bitch ass brother. I open my eyes and instantly become madd heated. WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT NIGGA?? I say to him. He replies: I got a problem that I need you to make disappear. NEGRO PLEASE!!! I can't help you I respond and then I proceeded to turn out the lights. He turns the light back on and quickly begins to explain about how he was pulled over by Philadelphia's finest while he was on a light night mission for some ass. Then is he tells me that the police officer issued him four tickets totaling like $600 dollars. I respond: SO THE FUCK WHAT and NO, I'M NOT LENDING YOU SIX HUNDRED, SO NOW YOU CAN OFFICIALLY BOUNCE. That's not the problem he calmly states. Then he proceeds to tell me that he gave the police officer my name instead of his. WHAT?????? Now, I'm really the fuck'n heated.. What the fuck you do that dumb shit asshole I say to him. He states that the police department has a warrant for his arrest and if he would have told them who he really was he would have gotten locked up. So let me get this straight, instead of handling your business like real nigga you take the bitch route to save your own ass??? YOUR SAMMY THE BULL... YOUR A RAT.. YOUR A MOTHERFUCK'N RAT. WHAT HAPPEN TO DEATH BEFORE DISHONOR NIGGA??

Now, with this dumb ass smurk on his face he states I can beat these charges like "Rocky". Check it, all you have to do is go to court and plead guilty to a lessor charge, pay the fines and roll out. I'M LIKE WHAT!!!! Nigga you done bumped your motherfuck'n head and completely have lossed your mind. I'm not going to court and put my life on the line and risk having my freedom being taken. FUCK YOU!!! He's like man you got to go or they're going to issue a warrant for your arrest. I'm like how do you figure that genious? Then he hands me the multiple tickets which state that I must appear before the district magistrate. Failure to do so will result in my liscense being suspended, car being confiscated and a bench warrant my arrest.

DAMMMMMM!!!!!!! I'm done and with know way out, I contact my lawyer. He gives me two options: 1. Take the heat, go to court and plead guilty to a lessor charge or 2. Go to the state police, rat my brother out, file charges and have him arrested for fraud. HMMMM!!!!! I thought for a second then I said look: I'm not a rat or snitch so the latter is out of the question black. Suspose I go to court and play dumb like I don't know what's going on. My lawyer responds you got a 50/50 chance going that route but mostly likely the judge will not believe you and your going to get stuck wit the tickets. IIght, good look'n I say and hang up the phone.

What should I do????? Either way you look at it its not good.

Be Careful What U Ask 4?

Some how some way I knew today was going to be a bad day. I just had an erie feeling from the moment I woke up. And like a wise man once told me " If you think negative, then negative things will happen". Anyway, I get up Saturday morning with madd shit to do and not enough time to do it. I need a haircut, an oil change, stamps and oh yeah, I got to meet my real estate agent by 11:00am. Naturally, I wake up late. Me and the General went out last night after work to this spot in Center City for happy hour. It was some chickens in the building but nothing major to grab my attention. So, your boy Philly got twisted instead then shut it down and called it a rap for the night.

I awaken Saturday morning to a phone call. I roll over and look at my cell to see whose calling me this early in the morning. Its my mom. I pick up the phone and she immediately began to cry wolf. I ask what the problem is? She states her tire went flat, it can't be repaired and she riding on a spare tire which is a donut. She then proceeds to tell me she needs two new tires. I'm like okay what do you want me to do? My moms replies: Purchase me two tires and I'll pay you back. HMMMM... Given my moms track record, I know I'll never see this change again because she nevers pays me back. Anyway, I pause for a minute, bite my tongue, then agree to this loser deal and purchase the two tires on the internet.

Now I'm down four hundred and it's not even 9 o'clock yet. WHAT THE FUCK, I yell to myself. Then, I go take a shower, get dressed and breakout to meet my agent by 11:00am. Naturally, that nigga is late. Since I had some free time, I decided to call my new luv jones. She's such a sweetheart and she always listens to my problems. We rap for a minute about this and that and then she some how manages to presaude me into believing I did the right thing with my moms. Finally, my agent comes. I hang up and go handle my business.. We look at about three or four properties of which one of them is fairly descent for the $80,000 dollar asking price. Next, we head across town to check out his last property. Unfortuately the agent gets the boroughs mixed up and we wind up going to the wrong area. He apologized for the mix up and we go our separate ways because he had another appointment at 2:00pm. Moments later, my cell rings. Its the Fugitive and he's got a story to tell about this new freak he just met. We rap for a minute and then I hang up and head towards 69th street to chill out.

I get to 69th street and proceed to park in the parking lot. Since the lower level was full, I decided to park on the top floor by the steps. I go to my favorite spot which is the music hut to see what's new then I order a slice of pizza and bounce. My cell rings again. This time it's the General and he asking me how everything went. I explain to him what went down then for some reason I start bitch'n about how my moms is in my pockets and hitting me up for change. He tells me to Shut The "F" up and deal wit it. I reply: Whatever dog. I can't stack my paper because something is always popping off in my life. It's always something. What the fuck is going to happen next?? The General replies: Man you don't want to know the answer to that question. I'm like nah your right and then I hang up.

I walk back to my car. Everything is everything until I get up to the back of my car. First I noticed my glove box was open. Then I noticed my back window was broken. OH SHIT.. Somebody jacked my fuck'n radio and left my car for bad. I turn around and quickly scan the parking lot looking for anyone acting strange. Naturally, there's not a nigga in sight. Next, I call the pigs (police officers). They show up about five minutes later and then I filed a incident report. While filling out the report, the pig for some odd reason mentions to me this type of crime has been happening a lot lately. GEE THANKS I reply. Then, I get into my car and try to bounce. I put the key in the ignition, turn it but nothing happens.. Now, my fucking car won't start. These cock suckers must have cut my battery wire I say to myself. I pop the hood and everything seems to be intact. Still, old Betsy would not start. Fuck it, since I got a stick shift I push old Betsy down the parking lot's exit ramp. BOOM,BOOM. She starts up and I breakout.

Now, Im off to the auto repair shop to get an estimate on the damages done by these cock roaches. Off the top, this looks like about at least a stack ($1,000 dollars) worth of damages. But the crazy shit is this. My car is a fuck'n bucket that just gets me from point "A" to point "B". Except for the rims and system, my shit is raggedy. Whoever broke in my shit must have been real hungry. Anyway, "Be Careful What U Ask 4" because sometimes your questions get answered and you may not like the answer. Oh yeah, to add insult to injury, while I was parking my car, I stepped in a pile of DOG SHIT.. I guess this was just another reminder that I AIN'T SHIT and I WILL NEVER BE SHIT.


PHILLY HAS LEFT THE BUILDING.....

Justice or Just Us ( The Black Man's Dilemna)?

I was on my way home from another hard day at the office but instead of going directly home, I figured I'd go check out a property that I seen for sale online. (FYI-Phillylive is house shopping stay tuned)... Anyway, I get to the house and it's a shell (non-liveable / uninhabitable) and the owner had the nerve to be asking $80,000.00 for her piece of shit property. After being momentarily shocked, I jump back in the whip and get on the E-way (expressway) and head back to West Philly. It's like 7:30 or whatever and traffic is light. On my way home, I figured I stop by my moms spot to see if I received any mail (Note, all mail goes to my moms spot because insurance rates are cheaper in the county than the city). I get her house pick up my mail then bounce. Since I was hungry, I decided to stop by the corner deli and to get my grub on. I get to the store, hang up the cell, and place my order.

While I'm waiting for my food, I noticed two funny style niggas approach the building. One cat was like 6'5 or something while the other dude was like 5'6 and dusty looking. The 6'5 nigga entered the building and tried to place an order while the short nigga posted up outside. HMMMMMM... What's wrong with this picture I say to myself?? Then, my spider sense started to tingle. These nigga's are about to stick the joint up. Since I'm not the hero type, I figured I'd slide off before the situation got ugly. (NOTE, THE REASON I FELT SOMETHING WAS ABOUT TO GO DOWN WAS BECAUSE THIS WAS A PREDOMINANTLY WHITE NEIGHBORHOOD & 3 NIGGAS IN THIS DELI AT THE SAME TIME IS CRAZY).

Anyway, it was me, the 6'5 nigga and some white guy in the store. The little short nigga was still posted outside the door. Some how some way, I got the feeling that shit was about to pop off soon, so I tried to get the fuck out dodge before it went down because I did not have my hammer on me. As I began to break out, the undercover police officers hopped out of an unmarked vehicle and rushed the towards the deli with there gunz pointed ready to shoot. FREEZE, HANDS UP, NOBODY MOVE one of the jake yells... Then the little short nigga reaches and pulls a knife from inside his jacket. The undercovers bum rush that nigga and take him down wit the quickness. Next thing I know, somebody pulls my jacket over my head, jumps on my back and trys to take me to the ground. I'M LIKE OH SHIT, IT MUST BE HIS MAN TRY'N TO USE ME HOSTAGE OR SOMETHING. I was momentarily shook, but I was not going out like that black. So I WWF/tossed that nigga to the ground. Since I thought he had a hammer, I did not bother to turnaround and knuckle up, I just tried to get out of harms way. When I looked back to see what the deal was, I noticed the white guy that I was in store with me was screaming to the undercovers that me and the short nigga was together. Naturally, the undercovers point the hammers at me. Now, I'm in the middle of street wit my hands in the air where the cops could see.

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON???? I yell to the undercovers. WHAT IS HAPPENING OUT HERE??? I'm in a rage and now I'm try'n to get at the white dude from the store because that motherfucker tried to shout me out plus he made me drop my razor (cell) that I just bought like a week ago for a buck fifty. Fuck all that, I began pushing and shoving but the law was not having any of it. One of the ten cops out there told me to shut the fuck up before I get locked up. I'm like locked up for what??? Mind you, I still had my suit and tie on from work. How could they possible get me mixed up with that riff raft type nigga? I guess all nigga's look alike huh???

I'm out...

MY EX THE END ( The Dear John Letter )....

Dear Philly,

This may be the hardest letter I ever had to write but I wanted to write you to explain some feeling I am having about you. So many thing have changed within the last few months. For starters, my feelings have changed alot. I know you are a great guy and I love you very much but I am not in love with you the way I use to be. I have been thinking alot about us as a whole and I have come to the conclusion that I do not want to get married anymore. I think the one of the worst things that can be done is to get married when my feeling have changed. The bad part about it all is I know I have been pushing this for a while and it did not happen. Maybe its not in the cards for us. I think what we should do right now is go our separate ways.

As I said, this is diffcult because I know you love me and I know I may never find someone else who loves me like you do. I tried and you tried but when feeling get involve and they change then its a problem. I don't think it would be fair if I did not tell you this. These feeling have been building up for some time. I know you don't agree with some of the things I say but whether I'm right or you're right is not important at the moment. I know its unfortunate things had to come to this but if I am making a mistake I will have to live with the consequenses. Sometimes I think it was not just not meant to be.

Finally, I wanted to write you this letter because for me, things come across better on paper than when speaking to you face to face. You know I always had trouble discussing these type of things with you. Philly, I don't want you to be angry at me or dislike me. I hope after all these years we can still be friends. I feel empty in some ways but then again, I can not change the way I currently feel about us. Lastly, remember you are a good guy and I know many females would love or want to get with you. Please try to remain friends with me.

Love Ebony...
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My first reaction when I got this letter was like WHOA, THIS SHIT CAN'T BE HAPPENING TO ME... It really made me think. How do I respond to this??? What should I say her?? It took me about 24 hours to think of something.

Fuck calling, I wrote a letter back too her which I will never publish so don't ask. My letter to her was not bad, negative or anything like that because that's not my style. I just expressed to her my feeling about our relationship and wished her well in her future endeavors. And, like a real nigga, I ask for my ring back and to date I have never received it. I did not stress that situation either because that a small thing to a giant. I just kept it moving and refused to look back. Ebony has since sent me a couple cards and letters over the last couple of years but I never respond to her. Maybe its my pride thats in way or maybe I was just hurt mentality and physically. Whatever the case may, I'm going to stick to the script. Maybe I'll see her in my next life??? But then again, knowing me, I probably will not be looking for her...

THE END..........

MY EX PART III ( When Things Fall Apart )...

A couple of months and a few different marriages by her girlfriends went by and still we did not have a date for our wedding. By now, Ebony had become increasingly frustrated with me on the low and I knew it. She began to say little slick sh*t to me about getting married but I would just ignore her. Then, one day, she broke down and said her pops was in her ear about the apparent delay in our plans. Let the truth be told, her little sister had got knocked up by some funny style nigga from North Jersey. Old boy then cut her off and started f*uck'n wit the next chick when she was six months pregnant with his child. Of course, that did not sit well with her pops or mom dukes, so now your boy Philly was under the gun and getting "MADD GRIEF" from her peoples.

Naturally, I was a little upset by the drama and the bullshyt but I tried to stay focused. Then, I got hit with the Tyson ( Iron Mike ) blow. My boss called me into his office about 2:00 pm for a meeting. He got right to the point and explained to me that the department I was overseeing was underachieving and was not generating enough revenue to make the business profitable for the agency. Thus, it would either be sold or closed within six months. HMMMMM.. My life seemed to flash right before my eyes that day. Not only was I having problems at home, now I was going to be unemployed. With no questions or comments, I left the meeting with my boss tighted lipped and head back to my office. Five o'clock could not come fast enough that day.

I went home and waited for Ebony. She got home late because she was getting her hair done. I sat on the edge of the couch try'n to get my thoughts together. Finally, Ebony came home. I explained to her what had went down at work. She looked perplexed when I told her and did not have a comment. She was literally speechless. About a week later, I ended up in the hospital for couple of days. I was admitted to the intensive care unit. My blood pressure was spiraling out of control and I did not even know it. I was diagnosed with hypertension and promptly placed on medication. Shit was getting crazier by the minute for me, but I was just try'n to maintain and see it through. Luckily, my high blood pressure was caught in time and I did not damage any of my internal organs.

With the wedding kinda of sort of on the back burner our relationship soured. Ebony was merely going through the motions. We began to agree to disagree about everything. Also, I noticed she was either calling or going home on the regular. THIS IS CLEARLY NOT A GOOD LOOK I SAY TO MYSELF....

To be continued...